In which I reset my life

For most of us, 2017 was a pretty terrible year. Personally, I spent most of the year having an existential crisis because I was working in a field that I wasn’t particularly interested in with no room to grow. I spent every day wanting more to life, and my need for a change became more and more urgent as the year dragged on. I lacked the energy and creative drive to be able to work on my photography after spending at least 9 hours a day enclosed in a 6×4 pen staring at either a computer screen or a blank wall. So, I quit my stable income office job at the beginning of December 2017 and decided to freelance full time.

I spent my first week un/self-employed lying on my couch and finally getting the first vacation I had been able to take since 2013. It. Was. Glorious. I spent the next two weeks designing websites and logos for and going to pitch meetings with a media collective I’ve started working with since quitting my 9-6. The last week of December was panic week for me. Partially because the holidays are just the absolute worst, and partially because freelancing has its own set of problems for someone like me. I haven’t the slightest clue, for instance, on how to market myself…which is a problem when that’s the only way you’re going to get any kind of income.

All of this is to say that while I have no idea what I’m doing, and I’m floundering and flying by the seat of my pants at this moment, I’m enjoying the process and the challenge.

portrait Thankfully, at the end of every year, I sit down with this lovely author [pictured], and we hash out our goals for the upcoming year. So I think that I finally have some kind of plan in place for the next year. Normally, I am the sort of person who goes with the flow and wings a lot of what I do. This is my first lesson learned as a freelancer: have a plan. In my case, it’s starting small, with a daily schedule. The biggest takeaway that I have from this past month is that unless I have an actual planned schedule for the day, I am still very much in vacation mode, and this is not helpful or productive as a freelancer.

I pulled the safety net out from under myself and now it’s time to sink or swim.

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